
That must have caused some trauma in your life. You definetly have some struggles, but I think if you really want a family (IMO) you should really focus on yourself. If YOU are doing well and consider going through therapy and maybe some actual job training, then you will be able to have the family you want. You may struggle w/ disabilites ( I don't know what have) but I am sure if you put in the effort to live to your upmost potential, that little baby will be able to grow up in a very healthy home.
This void that you feel needs to heal, and only you can actively seek out the help you may need to work through that trauma. Adopting a baby will
not fill this void.
