I dreamt that my parents called me "idiot" and that I got so depressed that I went to the beach and drowned myself only to wake up to be called "idiot" again. Which got me depressed even more, so I stabbed myself to death. And then I woke up again, being called "idiot." I then stood in the road and got hit by a truck. And then I woke up yet again being called "idiot." I set myself on fire, I electrocuted myself, I strangled myself, I threw myself off a cliff, and whatever other ways there are to suicide, and I still woke up to be called an idiot.
And with all the things I have done in my past, I deserve death.
If the only thing I'm going to be called nowadays is going to be "idiot" then maybe being dead is better.![]()