damn its been a day....I am just winding down now. my 5 year old daughter cut her head open really bad. from hairline to eyebrow. so deep you could see the bone. I took her to the local fire station, I live in a rural area so 911 is out of the question. the fire station is really close by. so they did what they could and called and ambulance. which took 40 minutes to arrive and another 40 minutes to get to the hospital. at the emergency room the doc sayed a plastic surgion would be better but none were available. and the nature of the cut. it had to be closed so he did it himself. she got 13 stitches. she was so tough and brave I am really proud of her. I dunno if I could have been so calm with an injury like that. luckely I clicked into dad mode and was able to hold myself together and think clearly. I swear it looked like someone threw a gallon of blood on her. I know head wounds bleed alot but I had never seen anything like it in real life. in the ER the nurse removed the dressing that the firemen put on and I got my first good look at the cut without all the blood. I felt sick to my stomach and wanted to cry for her. but I knew if I did it would upset her. I am scared she will have a scar now. she is so beutiful she doesn't deserve all this.
anyways I am still to wired to relax and go to sleep. she is sleeping in bed with my wife, and is doing well. I know things could be worse but in 7 years of parenting I've never delt with anything worse than skinned knees and bee stings.